BLAAAAAH No Motivation, No Get Up and Go Dear Friends, One of the stupidest and most frustrating “symptoms” of grief, for me and in my experience, is when I have days where doing anything seems like so much effort that it’s not worth it. Not quite to the scale of debilitating depression, because I do
Category: Charlie
NILMDTS Remembrance Walk, OH 2018
Dear Friend, I will be taking part in a walk to remember our baby, as part of the Now I Lay Me Down To Sleep (NILMDTS) annual walk, which is in June, actually just days after Charlie’s birthday. What this does is support the organization, which provides professional photographers on a pro
Heartbreak In My Stomach
(drawing credit: Sarah Warner, for MWAH2017) Dear Friends, There is a feeling I’d like to explain. For me, part of grief – not just sadness, missing Charlie, dashed hopes and dreams – is a truly visceral feeling. For me, emotion has always been tied to stomach aches. Not the kind you get with the flu,
By The Numbers
By the Numbers The Statistics of Baby Loss Hi Friends, This is going to be a brief explanation of the statistics of baby loss you may see floating around. Some are true, some are false, and most are simply a little misleading unless you hear where the numbers are from. I will be including
Our Tiger Cub’s Blanket
Dear Friends, In my previous post about Dolly Parton, I mentioned that I had made a blanket, and that working on it helped me in my grief journey. This post is sharing that blanket!! It is a cotton blanket, crocheted with just single crochet. The interest is in the variegated yarns and which colors I
In the Right Place, At the Right Time
…Or, Why I Take Pookie With Me To Public Places There are many reasons I take Pookie with me, the primary one being that I feel like I need a little one to hold, and/or the comfort of a stuffed toy. I’ll sometimes take him just for company, but usually it’s because I’m going somewhere
October
Friends, October means a lot to many of those in the baby loss community, whether or not any personally significant dates for that family occur in this month. October is infant loss awareness month, with the 15th being “remembrance day”. So, there are more events, ceremonies, walks, etc. in October than most months. In fact,
Diagnosis: Heartache, Chronic. Ok?
Dear Friends, One of the things I’m learning (slowly) is to be patient with myself, and forgiving. I’ve never really been terribly patient! I’m sure if my parents are reading this, they’re nodding along. When it comes to grief, though, part of the “problem” that makes it difficult, is that there is no set of
Emotions & Childloss
Hi Friends, I will again start this post with the caveat: This is MY experience, and others may perceive or experience grief differently from me. I will start out by admitting I have always been somewhat of a dramatic person. I have always expressed feelings loudly and vehemently. I like to believe this is because
Baby Tree
Hi Friends, When Charlie was newly born and we were getting gifts after the funeral, we got a few that were not tangible. They were really wonderful, too! For instance, one person bought a star in his name, so we got a certificate and a star map to show us where it is (it’s a